It’s not about me

A good friend and I sat at Aspen Wednesday afternoon and talked about how God is moving in our lives. Although He’s provided some challenges for us lately, we both marveled at how He’s provided blessing after blessing for us.

Part of our conversation really encouraged me, and I hope it can do the same for you.

As we reminisced on the ways God has worked this past year, we both came to a very important realization:

God’s provision has nothing to do with anything we’ve done or can do.

And we are so thankful for that.

The example at hand had to do with a hot topic for most college students: relationships. My friend, who is so awesome and hilarious and great, is currently single. She told me she felt like she was doing a poor job of waiting on the Lord, and that she wasn’t focusing enough on bettering herself in the waiting. (Isn’t it funny how even when we’re not really doing anything, we find a way to make it about us?)

As we talked, I began to think about the beginning of the relationship I’m currently in. Was I genuinely waiting on the Lord when Andrew and I started dating?

The answer to that question is a definite NO.

My heart was nowhere near the right place. I was scrambling around, trying to make something happen for myself, all while ironically closing off my heart to any real, true and godly love. I wanted to have a fun, “collegey” relationship and worry about honoring the Lord later on when it was time to get serious.

And then God stepped in.

He gave me a godly relationship that has continued to bring me joy since it began, despite my prideful and rebellious heart. He gave me an earthly reminder of His perfect timing and plan for my life. He showed me that even though I deserve nothing from Him, He can still work in any area of my life that He chooses.

He showed me that I am never too far off for His grace, and that in receiving His grace I am glorifying Him.

However, our realization of God’s goodness wasn’t even close to stopping there. Why? Because His provision in the face of my ugly human condition isn’t just evident in my earthly relationships. It’s not just something God did in my life.

It’s the very nature of the Gospel.

For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die—but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:6-8)

God’s provision has nothing to do with anything we’ve done or can do.

Does that mean we should be lazy, sit back and wait for the blessings to flow? No. But I think we need to stop stressing over what we’re not doing or saying or thinking and realize it’s not about us. Our pursuit of Him flows from Him, not the other way around.

Can you imagine if God’s love for us was based on whether we first loved Him?

Thanks be to God that He pursues us and provides for us even in our worst moments.

Thank goodness it’s not about me.

In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins…We love because he first loved us. (1 John 4:10,19)

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